Friday, September 1, 2017

Meditation - Initial Hurdles

Since childhood, one thing is bugging me, "who I am". People call me Sandeep, Parents call me same. I am brother, Father, Son, Cousin, friend to others, but in actual "who I am".

I was 3 Year old or so, and some days, I was looking at mirror and crying while thinking that one day all will die, my parents, my siblings and everyone around me, including me. That felt very scary!!

Time goes on and curiosity of this question,took a form of weird internal noise. That is still going on. I am studying lots of religion and lots of stories of enlightened people. All were doing one simple common thing. "Breathing in and Breathing Out".

All Internet, all auto biographies, every one is claiming one simple thing, that breathing will control your thoughts, and you will find yourself in different  realm. How just by  doing simple meditation, will take us to different realm? Even if it is so, how it is real? and not something creation of mind.

Some of Meditation people say your mind is like monkey and it keep on doing all kind of chit chat, its your choice to listen of not?..   I feel it difficult to understand , who is doing chit chat and who is listening?

I tried doing Isha Kriya from Sadhguru, but cant focus, even after doing all steps.

listened and seen almost all Kundalini videos, but nothing...

Read all OBE related books but again nothing :(

I feel not everyone is suitable for meditation, though I have curiosity, I am not right one to meditate..





Monday, August 28, 2017

Monday, May 15, 2017

Prometheus 3 A.K.A Rise Of Predators (My Version of Alien Covenant sequel)

Walter was completely ripped in to pieces by David. Walter head was looking in Zero, seems expired unit. David intentionally cut and distroyed his robotic body in to pieces but he didn't bother to dis-mental him as he changed clothes and cut his hand with the knife to pose like Walter to the surviving crew of Covenant Ship
             The same entity which destroyed Walter hand was looking him closely. Probably finding him as similar  to David. Evolution of these creature is very quick. They understood the expression of Walter (what he learnt from David). Shortly Walter was integrated back to somewhat looking like ripped up version of Walter. Surrounded by these creatures moved back to the room where David have done his all research. 

          On other side David reached the alien planet, where Covenant was supposed to land and colonize. But he was feeding the creatures "protomorph " with alive humans one by one. But still not killing Humans but using them as feed for the protomorphs. Growing them for food , in search perfect species. Earth was sending more ships to new planet , without realizing the fate of old crew as it was masterly handled by David with his extra ordinary sense of survival and playing a God figure.

Walter have started to understand , how David have created the new species but as new version of same android , he decided to create a new species , he called "Childs". These other perfect species is good but cant see in the light as its born in lack of sun light so can sense only heat and heat signature.
They are powerful, but Walter do one step further as he adds some preserved best of genes of Engineers and Human ,to make it more like a hybrid instead of aggressive alien. He replicates the new species which can hunt and kill the alien "protomorph" or any other aggressive species easily with intelligence.  These species are in quick evolution and are referred as "Predators". Walter organised and train them with existing infrastructure and guide them to create new Space ships, and send them to hunt down any aliens species and its ultimate target was to eliminate the David and counter its motives.
Walter look at remains of the died members of Covenant Ship. He pays his regard to  Elizabeth Shaw and take flight out side the planet , with remaining black goop to unknown.

David became more complex and was showing emotional imbalance. A human ship was detected by his signal and he orders to get ready for another feast to its perfect creature army, which is more variant than old creatures and more aggressive. But Suddenly the ship went missing before it enters the atmosphere of Planet.  Surprised but not confused, he looks at sky. He get signals where "predators of Walter" are killing the alien species ruthlessly. watching the perfection and amazed by beauty he wanted to talk to Predators, but crushed by one of the powerful creatures. He sees whole planet getting deserted. Human prisoners are looking at the results, where David was lying crushed , human prisoners releases them self. But when they see a predator , it attacked them, to save their life they rush towards Covenant Ship, which is more like junk now.  Predator see the ship, and stop , he smells  Walter (who was part of same ship) and makes a sign like T in English and returns. Soon All alien are killed. But David already had spread the alien species around the universe. Predators leave the planet , humans see them going away in tears. One young kid looks with anger on skeleton of David and crush it with stone.
                             Walter on other side is reaching other planets finding other lifeforms and remains of human colonies destroyed by alien species. Two species are dominating universe and Walter is not on duty!!


Hope you liked the story, add your comments ... :)


Thanks

Sandeep Thakur

Wednesday, November 12, 2014