What if, you gradually stopped to do the things, you mostly like in past....??? What if, you feel locked down, burden of unknown... burden of responsibility... More over you want to cry, but can't... you want to share your life thoughts with some one... how you are feeling... and wonder no one ... and if even if you try to tell... others become suspicious about you rather than helping.. and you want someone seriously to share your life and in the process you are getting away from the world... becoming more lonely... more sick.... and you are just living because you are breathing... and your body don't allow you to die.. as you are young... You want to either get out of all the crap or you want to kill yourself....
You know that you are ill... but don't know what to do... you are willing to defeat your problems.. illness... nut end of the day you are on the loosing side... you want to plan ... but cannot... you want to be happy... but cannot... you want to live freely ... but still feel like tied with an invisible rope... you want to breath peacefully rather you are breathing impatiently... You want to settle down.. but feeling an unseen travel or going to somewhere....
You cannot feel your feelings.. you have only two feelings anxiety and anger.... Happiness and joy are things of past... you are interested in spiritualism and self help... but you cannot focus on anything of these... you want to know but can not find... if these are your symptoms you have following solutions:-
1) Remember death is not ultimate.. It is another beginning..
2) Remember your mind may give you pain .. but no one can give pain to soul.
3) Remember No one will help you is not the case, you have to reach the help..
4) Mind may fool you with above thoughts.. But you have to focus on soul... Soul will show you always the right path...
5) Don't feel guilty.. its your Karma that you are supposed to do.. try not to repeat mistakes in future.
6) If some one is annoyed from your last behavior, give him surprise by changing your attitude in a day.. be polite with him, and don't forget to say sorry.
7) Learn to accept the mistakes and learn to say sorry.
8) You are here from Big bang.. and you will be here till infinity.. you are part of a big super energy system, called GOD. try to trust in GOD (choose any religion).
9) Your body is star dust.. but your soul is the energy which glows the stars..
10) Lastly live everyday like last day of your life.. Start your day like this is last morning.. what you want to do on your last day.. do everything you want... Just do it...
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
Home sickness…
Its 14 days in Mumbai now… and tour is extending with time.. so missing my home and family…. Lets see when will I get back to home….No probable dates are still with me… 
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Mumbai Days...
I came 5 days back to Mumbai for office work and from Delhi to Mumbai my journey was through a GoAir flight. As I landed in Mumbai, after custom clearance I hired a prepaid taxi and then went to office to Dadar Shivaji park and it was not difficult to reach office, as our office boy came to receive me outside office.
First Day:-
After reaching office I was feeling tired so I took bath and had some snacks for breakfast, I had also spoken to my wife and parents. all staff members came at 12:00 O'clock. And after meeting all I understood my tasks from my colleague and I have started working on the tasks.. In the second half I went outside the office for my office work and during this I went to near sea shore called Dadar Chaupati.. It was wonderful to see Worli- Bandra sea link. I slept in the office that day as my manager was not able to find accomodation for me.
Second day:-
I got up at 9:00 and took bath and in second half our admin Pallavi came and she arranged a flat for me with my colleague. So this night I didn't slept in office and it was out side from office. One more thing I forgot to share, My office is out side a Electrical crematory , and in common frequency dead bodies were being brought for the cremation. Strange but local people are used to this.( there are flats and apartments around this)
Third day:-(31-12-2010)
This day was last day of year and after whole days work.. I was missing my family and my sweet wife. Though I was not showing but I was feeling alone. So when all guys from the office went to home saying me happy new year.. My boss told me to go for a outing rather than going to home for sleeping:), He have taken me to Dadar local station, and this was the first time, I travelled through local train and my destination was Lower parel's Phoneix Shopping mall and PVR. I was amused to ride the local train and I went to phoneix mall after making queries from local people.
after a security check I went to mall and I was happy to be alone in crowd.. as I usually:).. I decided to go for movie and then taken ticket for movie Gulliver travels.. (Though this movie was a OK...better i'll say time pass).. I came back to rented flat at Mahim at 10:30..
Fourth day:-
this was a ok ok day... I went to office and after days work I came back to flat.
fifth day:-
This time I started to Colaba to meet my college friend's family. I reached there at 1:15 (R.C.church) and then went to Navy colony and have had some good time with friends family.. I have taken lunch and after some gossip, her husband taken me to gateway of India. And after reaching GOI, I said him bye and went to GOI. It was a wuite a big rush and I had seen Hotel Taj and the GOI closely.
I had seen some boats roaming there, so I decided to get a ride, I bought a ticket and take ride of a boat. It was a good experience, better I'll say a relaxing one. I liked the way wind was hitting my face and additionaly It was cool...
After ride I came back to church gate and then started to Mahim, but in the way I took a break and then went to PVR...and It was a faltu movie and I spend better I'll say wasted money...
after whole days chill out... I am missing my family...
First Day:-
After reaching office I was feeling tired so I took bath and had some snacks for breakfast, I had also spoken to my wife and parents. all staff members came at 12:00 O'clock. And after meeting all I understood my tasks from my colleague and I have started working on the tasks.. In the second half I went outside the office for my office work and during this I went to near sea shore called Dadar Chaupati.. It was wonderful to see Worli- Bandra sea link. I slept in the office that day as my manager was not able to find accomodation for me.
Second day:-
I got up at 9:00 and took bath and in second half our admin Pallavi came and she arranged a flat for me with my colleague. So this night I didn't slept in office and it was out side from office. One more thing I forgot to share, My office is out side a Electrical crematory , and in common frequency dead bodies were being brought for the cremation. Strange but local people are used to this.( there are flats and apartments around this)
Third day:-(31-12-2010)
This day was last day of year and after whole days work.. I was missing my family and my sweet wife. Though I was not showing but I was feeling alone. So when all guys from the office went to home saying me happy new year.. My boss told me to go for a outing rather than going to home for sleeping:), He have taken me to Dadar local station, and this was the first time, I travelled through local train and my destination was Lower parel's Phoneix Shopping mall and PVR. I was amused to ride the local train and I went to phoneix mall after making queries from local people.
after a security check I went to mall and I was happy to be alone in crowd.. as I usually:).. I decided to go for movie and then taken ticket for movie Gulliver travels.. (Though this movie was a OK...better i'll say time pass).. I came back to rented flat at Mahim at 10:30..
Fourth day:-
this was a ok ok day... I went to office and after days work I came back to flat.
fifth day:-
This time I started to Colaba to meet my college friend's family. I reached there at 1:15 (R.C.church) and then went to Navy colony and have had some good time with friends family.. I have taken lunch and after some gossip, her husband taken me to gateway of India. And after reaching GOI, I said him bye and went to GOI. It was a wuite a big rush and I had seen Hotel Taj and the GOI closely.
I had seen some boats roaming there, so I decided to get a ride, I bought a ticket and take ride of a boat. It was a good experience, better I'll say a relaxing one. I liked the way wind was hitting my face and additionaly It was cool...
After ride I came back to church gate and then started to Mahim, but in the way I took a break and then went to PVR...and It was a faltu movie and I spend better I'll say wasted money...
after whole days chill out... I am missing my family...
Monday, September 6, 2010
"FUTURE OF COMPUTING:- LIGHT COMPUTER PROCESSOR"
"FUTURE OF COMPUTING:- LIGHT COMPUTER PROCESSOR" by Sandeep Thakur
As per 2010, people are very happy to work with the core i5 or i7 processors,
I am not amused on this since I am not happy with the current technolozy of computers,
on which processors are getting developed.Todays processors are only transistors centric, there is one thing
which is constantly growing and it is the power consumption,I was going throgh the various kind of
cpu architectures, as I was working with a EDA giant Cadence for a year, people were so eager to say oh!
45 nm architecture is so tough o achieve, but currently processors got compressod to more low scale 32nm architecture.
So whats the point?... we are going to achieve 11 nm very soon in future... but whats the difference??
if the compression is better. So now technolozy needs some much better way. Better I will say Technolozy needs a complete redressel!!!
Ok Lets start ... Currently from 2001 to 2010 we are not able to achieve core speed of 5GhZ..
Yes you may overclock your system , but that does not make sense.. So we need to analyze that where we are going?..
certainly Mooreys law will fall.. bUt whats after that? HDD went from Mb's to GB's To Tb's.
What processors are still there... at Ghz's... not THz's achieved. Is it lack of technolozy needed to achieve that? certainly no!!! Only direction is wrong..
I am thinking about a computer which is lightning fast.. LIGHTNING FAST MEANS WORK EQUALS TO SPEED OF LIGHT.
If this phenomenon is possible or not?Certainly it is possible.. currently all instructions work with respect to electrical signals. which also work with speed of light. But they collectevly do not work with speed of light. So what my futures processor look like is... having no transistors at all!!!
1) A light source
2) Micro mirroring surface tubes.
3) Instruction receptors.
4) Instruction Despatchers.
5) parity checker.
6) ALU consisting of millions of Nano calculating units (based on Mirroring surface tubes)
Memory device for such SUPER Processor also should be equally fast as processor is.. So my memory devices will be NANO QUANTA MEMORY CARDS. which responds equally.
No need for RAM, as everything will be speedy, yes we need a CACHE ALTER, for calculation of the old and new info.. for trillions of nano calculating units..
The resultant PC will have 1PByte platform (like we see 32 bit or 64 bit architecture.. There will be no physical display devices.. Everything will be on
cool glasses which will be linked directly to Processors on a revolutionary data transmit architecure called "LIGHTYEAR", like we use bluetooth or wifi. This Light year technolozy is able to transmit 1Pbyte of data in 10exponential part of second.
So our whole Pc will be compacted on a matchbox like structre. everything will be linked to us, so instruction may be vocal or may be directly from mind.
People can save their memories in the "NANO QUANTA MEMORY CARDS."
This is future of real computing. In future every PC will be a Super computer of its on kind.
As per 2010, people are very happy to work with the core i5 or i7 processors,
I am not amused on this since I am not happy with the current technolozy of computers,
on which processors are getting developed.Todays processors are only transistors centric, there is one thing
which is constantly growing and it is the power consumption,I was going throgh the various kind of
cpu architectures, as I was working with a EDA giant Cadence for a year, people were so eager to say oh!
45 nm architecture is so tough o achieve, but currently processors got compressod to more low scale 32nm architecture.
So whats the point?... we are going to achieve 11 nm very soon in future... but whats the difference??
if the compression is better. So now technolozy needs some much better way. Better I will say Technolozy needs a complete redressel!!!
Ok Lets start ... Currently from 2001 to 2010 we are not able to achieve core speed of 5GhZ..
Yes you may overclock your system , but that does not make sense.. So we need to analyze that where we are going?..
certainly Mooreys law will fall.. bUt whats after that? HDD went from Mb's to GB's To Tb's.
What processors are still there... at Ghz's... not THz's achieved. Is it lack of technolozy needed to achieve that? certainly no!!! Only direction is wrong..
I am thinking about a computer which is lightning fast.. LIGHTNING FAST MEANS WORK EQUALS TO SPEED OF LIGHT.
If this phenomenon is possible or not?Certainly it is possible.. currently all instructions work with respect to electrical signals. which also work with speed of light. But they collectevly do not work with speed of light. So what my futures processor look like is... having no transistors at all!!!
1) A light source
2) Micro mirroring surface tubes.
3) Instruction receptors.
4) Instruction Despatchers.
5) parity checker.
6) ALU consisting of millions of Nano calculating units (based on Mirroring surface tubes)
Memory device for such SUPER Processor also should be equally fast as processor is.. So my memory devices will be NANO QUANTA MEMORY CARDS. which responds equally.
No need for RAM, as everything will be speedy, yes we need a CACHE ALTER, for calculation of the old and new info.. for trillions of nano calculating units..
The resultant PC will have 1PByte platform (like we see 32 bit or 64 bit architecture.. There will be no physical display devices.. Everything will be on
cool glasses which will be linked directly to Processors on a revolutionary data transmit architecure called "LIGHTYEAR", like we use bluetooth or wifi. This Light year technolozy is able to transmit 1Pbyte of data in 10exponential part of second.
So our whole Pc will be compacted on a matchbox like structre. everything will be linked to us, so instruction may be vocal or may be directly from mind.
People can save their memories in the "NANO QUANTA MEMORY CARDS."
This is future of real computing. In future every PC will be a Super computer of its on kind.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Naturally made OM in Himachal Pradesh viewed from space...
I was watching google earth and sudenly I seen this divine word in Indian space Map...
So I am sharing this with all world...
Regards
Sandeep Thakur
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